Wednesday, January 12, 2011

sedihh

Kali ini saya nulis blognya dari kantor. Pas istirahat. Ditemani sama sekotak susu coklat dingin. Sengaja saya pilih yang dingin, karena rasanya memang lebih enak kalau diminum dingin, dan sekalian buat mendinginkan pikiran saya yang lagi panas.

Panas kenapa? Saya ga mau bilang detail. Tapi secara garis besarnya, saya lagi kecewa. Kecewa karena sesuatu yang ada dalam bayangan saya, ternyata belum kesampaian.

Beberapa waktu belakangan, saya benar-benar merasa bahagia sama kehidupan saya. Saya merasa puas dan merasa mendapatkan hampir semua yang saya inginkan. But not today! Saya nangis. Saya sedih. Saya kecewa.

Tapi saya ga mau larut. Saya tetap percaya Tuhan punya rencana. Ia selalu punya rencana yang indah melalui semua tindakannya kepada saya, baik melalui tindakannya yang bikin saya tertawa atau menangis.. Saya percaya. Saya ga tau pasti si, kali ini apa rencana-Nya dengan membuat saya menangis seperti ini. But I know: surely, He is good to me.. All the way.. All the time :)


Tuesday, January 4, 2011

I miss my life before 24

Yes, I miss my life before 24.

I miss my life when I was under 10. When I used to play with my elder sister and my neighbors. It's the age when I think of only my happiness and worry about nothing.

I miss my life when I was 14. It's the age when for the first time, a guy, told me that he had "special feeling" about me. Yeaayy!! It's kinda weird, yes, because it was the first time. I didn't have enough time to consider to accept him as my boyfriend. I was easily answer "no" to him. Not because I didn't like him nor he had ugly face. No! But it just because I don't know what to do. He was my good friend. And he was two years older than me. We use to laugh and play together. So I just feel a bit weird if we start our relation into couple. And the main reason is I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! ITS MY FIRST TIME! IT'S THE FIRST TIME A GUY TELL HIS SPECIAL FEELING ABOUT ME!

Alright, let move on..

I miss my life when I was 21-22. I used to have great times with my besties. I used to go from one mall to other mall with them, I used to meet them and telling stories with them in my "kosan" before we go to college, I used to laugh a lot with them..

Well, now I am 24. I have a very good life. And I'm so thankful for it. But I just miss my life before I was 24...